searching for a resolution

I have been thinking a lot about the return trip "home." We put a lot of emphasis on the place and the word.
The word home can bring up a lot of emotions, sometimes, it is a dose of depression, like your first return home from going away to school. It seems you have to go home to find out that home is not the place you are returning to, but the place that you have just come from. It is a hard thing to realize. It can create a lot of confusion. Sometimes the word grants a dose of excitement. You remember where you came from and who you were along your way, and work your way to finding out who you are in the present.

Everytime I talk about going home, I think of Shelia. She teased me so often over the summer about my confusion over home. It is true, I am a very confused girl. I leave little bits of my heart everywhere, that way it is easier to return to that home. I always liked the quote that I found in one of my favorite book series, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, it goes something like this, "You have to live life like a turtle, you have to learn to take home with you." I kind of like this. Though it is sometimes difficult to define where your home is, in this sense, you are always home. In this way, all along your journey, you find a place to call yours. You find people to travel with you and you have experiences that only ready you for a final resting place that need not be a cause for confusion.
I am excited to see what a new year and new semester will bring. There are more opportunities in this life than I could ever dream up. Yet, it is hard to leave people and places behind. I find myself only being glad they once were mine, and press on to the future for what is to come.

New Years Resolution: To find another new place I can lovingly call home.
To change the world- even if it is just my own.